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Not a good day mentally. Beer and marshmallows… tells you my mood…

true blood premier june 10!!!

I’LL BE MOVED THEN! HIP HIP FUCK YEA!

excited!

the last few weeks have been hectic. work has dominated nearly 100% of my time. i made a trip home this weekend to go to a cousin’s high school graduation. saw foo (since it’s been nearly 2 weeks) and i think he was excited to see me! he’s freaking HUGE. probably close to 10 pounds… that cat will be my downfall :)

i’m just focused on the move to lincoln. that’s all i want to do right now. this whole going to texas thing just needs to be done. i really don’t want to go. i know what waits for me. skinny ass cousins who look better than me in … everything… and who have better stuff and are more fashionable. talk about triggering… probably why i haven’t eaten much the last couple days. i know what this weekend holds. we’ll only be around them a day or two of the five i’ll be there. hopefully i catch some sun too :P

unfortunately i’ve started another blog. it’s not one i’m proud to admit i started. it’s not a porno blog or anything like that. it’s just… it’s personal. i’ve let myself create a monster within me and now that monster has a name and a personality. she shares thoughts with me and sometimes takes over. she’s made herself known throughout some of my recent posts on here. but she didn’t have a name until about 2 weeks ago. right after my last longer entry.

but i can’t let her take over this. not after what i’ve accomplished with my personal trainer. he set me up for success and i’m going to keep working on what he’s started. i have some great beginning muscle definition and i want to make that even more prominent. i don’t exactly want to be female schwartzenegger, but i want to look like i can kick someone’s ass.

i want to look good in dresses. sort of like the ones i posted right before this a few days ago. i think that’s the personality i want to create. dresses. allison in dresses? sure. i bought a couple from american eagle and forever 21 that are more summer/spring-y. i’ve never looked somewhat decent in them before.

even thought i have… a problem… i still know i have a pretty good body. my boobs are very proportionate to the rest of me. my legs look hella good and my butt has only recently become one of my best features (thanks to personal trainer!). my arms are getting there. triceps are better than biceps, but i can work on them. it’s the abdomen… OH THE ABS… i lack thine grace! that is the one trouble area for me.

there is so much i could post about. but i have a room to clean.

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it’s not a bad thing, just on my feed a lot more than i remember.

all these beach bodies keep popping up on my feed! JEALOUSSSSSSSS. just makes me want to work harder, though.

it’s a love/hate thing :)